Friday, June 29, 2012

What's in your cup?

I use this

Best cookie ever

My recipe box is filled with cookie recipes but this one is by far the most loved

Best mix

Yup, one of those days...

That's me!

I so do this all the time lol

Oh Jarvis

For some reason...I find this song dirty...and kinda hot...



Thursday, June 28, 2012

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Wtf...

But a brand new lightbulb in, lit up for 1 second and out it goes.

Am I the only one?

Am I the only woman that has no interest in seeing Magic Mike? Why would I pay money to sit through a bad story just to stare at a mostly naked man? Guess what?! I can sit alone at home and stare at men for free on my PC! The benefit to that is there may even be some better looking women with him and I don't have to sit through a story line that will probably make me want to stab myself in the eye with a pencil.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Movie list

Very excited for this one!


Friday, June 22, 2012

I guess if I post I have to do it...right?


Yum

Been into the Muesli again. This one is with greek yogurt, bit of milk, muesli mix (oats, barley, various seeds and nuts), hemp seeds, a bit of maple syrup and saskatoons.

I've been trying to accept this mindset recently...


Singing in my car...

Was belting this one out on my way to the office. An old favorite:

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Lunch

Leftover butter chicken on cottage cheese and lettuce in a wrap. Was so good!

Pearls

I'm not a jewelry fan but I've always wanted a set of pearls. As it is presumed bad luck to have someone by you pearls (as I'm told) I bought my first set...nothing fancy but I love them.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Who thinks of these?

Was going through some scents a friend brought over and...well...

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

The terrifying results...

The last five days have been spent in this anxious terrified state. My breathing is short and shallow, I'm dizzy, my stomach hurts, my appetite is gone (bad for a stress eater) and I'm starting to have chest pains. Focusing on anything was impossible, which made work and school work difficult. I kept telling myself to think positively while acknowledging my negative feelings but telling myself to see the better picture. I would sit at my desk and just force myself to take deep breaths.

2 months ago is when I went to the doctor for the lump in my neck, an examination, ultrasound and second opinion later...I was now seeing the surgeon. Every step of the way I hoped and begged the universe for it to be the last step...but there I was moving forward with uncertainty. I arrived at the hospital and asked how long the wait was to see him, "I don't know, he's not even here yet." was the reply. What if he doesn't come due to emergencies and I'm rescheduled for another month?? I go and sit in the waiting room. Surrounded by young and old I scan the faces in the waiting room, including a convict in an orange jumpsuit seated between two police. Each one in that room occupied my thoughts for a brief moment as I wondered why they were there and shared some worry for each. My thoughts began to drift to those that have been plaguing me for the past months, from the moment I found the lump over 6 months ago.

"What if it is something?"
"No it's nothing, you're fine."
"But what if?!"
"Stop it, you're fine. Don't worry until you have a reason to worry. Do you know how slim the chances are that it's something bad?"
"Yes, 1% actually, but I bet that 1% had people telling them they were fine and not to worry too!"
"You can't think like that, look how old your grandparents are and how healthy your family is!"
"Well there has to be a rotten egg in the bunch doesn't there? Our luck can only hold out for so many generations."
"Now you're getting unreasonable."

...and on and on, back and forth, angel and devil arguing. Suddenly, after waiting only 20 minutes, my name is called and I am lead through a narrow hallway. Doors lining the hall, some open. I glance in each room as we walk, a man waiting. A couple waiting. Then I pass by one and hear, "This here? Yes this is all cancer." I glance and see an elderly man with what looks like his wife and daughter. My chest tightens as I glance in the next room and see 5 people sitting in a circle hooked up to IVs. That must be the radiation/chemo room. I sit in my room and wait.

The surgeon finally enters and asks me some details, it is all a blur. He finds the bump on my neck and says, "oh ya, right there...hmmmmm" he asks me to move my chair forward so he can stand behind. He starts feeling around both sides me my neck humming and hawing. Then he said, "It's just a lymph node, you probably had a bad infection and it never went back to it's normal size. You are fine and it can stay where it is." By then I was crying...

Now it seems so stupid, the hours I spent worrying, the tears, the thoughts about what the future will bring, the research....should I fight? Should I not? Now it is all trivial and...stupid! It seems now I'm always thinking of those who sat in the same chair I did yesterday, those who received good news, and those who received bad. Their battles, who made it, who didn't. Life is so previous and our health is so fragile. I am so incredibly thankful that all my worries were for nothing. Well not nothing...now I have a new look on life, for too long I've had no motivation and just did not want to be in the situations I was. Now I am thankful for everything, even the stresses and disappointments! Thank you thank you thank you thank you!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Oh men...

I think one thing women can all agree on, always ready warning labels!!

Neet Hair Removal for Men

I need to ready more, only made it through the first page.0

Monday, June 11, 2012

Friday, June 8, 2012

Google Dictionary

I found this very interesting:

Google Dictionary

My half asleep state...

So I wake up to the sound of a wasp. As I lay there with my eyes closed I can tell this is a huge wasp just by the sound of the buzz. Then I hear it bouncing against my screen on the window beside my bed and think, "Oh god, that fucker's inside the house!" In a panic, still half asleep I must note, I bolt out of bed and look at the window, I see him flying and hitting the screen. In a panic I start taking the screen out of the window at the head of my bed hoping if he makes it over there he'd get out. As I'm sitting there with the window wide open, screen in hand, I wake up a little more and I realize that he is actually outside, stuck between the glass and screen as both windows were open overnight. As he finally flies away I look over at the screenless window in front of me and suddenly think, "shit shit shit he can get in here!" I slam the screen against the frame just as this wasp flies around the corner of the house and arrives directly in front of me! This huge wasp starts bouncing against the screen I'm holding in place which isn't even straight in line with the frame. Luckily I was able to get it secured in place.

Needless to say I was then fully awake and my common sense had now returned. Interesting start to my morning after a horrible sleep and very strange dreams.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Love this


Hello!



I'm not a jewelry fan but...

I <3 these earrings!

My fave

I may start with Big Rock and it really does have my heart but this is still my favorite.

Yes...

Sacrifice...

The best thing for my diet is having the busiest coffee shop on my route to work. My rule is I'll only get a coffee if the drive through line is short. This AM I so wanted a breakfast wrap and my favorite coffee...instead I have this as the line went put the parking lot and into the road! Sigh...

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Enjoyed this song while listening to my regular study channel on Grooveshark so I thought I'd use it to test the embed feature.

Sarabande-Duel by Georg Friedrich Händel on Grooveshark

Camera+

Love that app!

Mmmmm

Scrambled eggs with a bit of smoked salmon and cuban seasoning.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Colorful...

Adding some color to my spaghetti sauce tonight...as well as free range ground beef!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Ah yes

I never realized how horrifyingly true this video was until now...I just retired my Macbook...


Ummm...

Was looking up the difference between a bloody mary and a Caeser...the top search result confused me.

Bliss...

A piece of bread, an egg, coconut oil, salt/pepper and some garlic. Mmmmmmm