When things start to look up, you start to smile more, you feel good, want to get up in the morning, make plans, be productive, see what the future brings! Then...your chest tightens, your brain reminds you that you are worthless, stuck and that things are guaranteed to fall apart. You can't take a full breath, trying not to well up with tears, crave someone near you to reassure you and make you feel safe. You feel like you had approached the bright light of possibility and are being body slammed back down. It will pass.