Is beauty really in the eye of the beholder? Or is it just a spec of dust...

What happened in this world to have an image of beauty be a malnourished, woman who has no shape or child-bearing hips, breasts or thighs? Since when do have to be a size 5 or smaller in order to be "healthy"...what a crock.

Personally, if I am a size nine, exercise a min of 3 times a week, eat healthy, am sick less then once a year...am I not healthy? How come society is not allowing this. According to the Body Mass Index, my BMI is 25.8 and a normal weight is 18-24.9, which shows that I am just barely overweight.
Do I really look overweight? I have large hips and thighs but I have no fat that hangs over my pants or rolls when I stand...if I had no skin or muscles on my bones, I still doubt I could fit into a size 5.
I may not look like Tyra Banks, but I feel healthy. If only society would encourage me to be satisfied with my shape, and not make me feel terrible for the way I look. Sadly there is little hope for our future generations to grow up with a healthy self esteem. Children should learn to happy with themselves and if they grow up eating healthy and exercising they should have very little to worry about.
Personally, I am attracted to a more voluptuous woman. Shape is important to me, but for some reason I have a hard time accepting it on myself. Why is that? Years of being tormented in school as a child, from my brother, other sources? TV, magazines, movies, books... I wish I knew. Did you know Victoria's Secret chooses models based on women's tastes? Not mens, and most of these women are shapely and yet still in very good shape. Then again, why do most men my age tell me they are more attracted to a "healthy" woman, then the size 4 blond girl wearing a mask of make-up. Some beauty isn't real beauty...but I still wish I could at least see a little in myself...oh well. The most frustrating thing about it was brought to my attention in college. These girls in my class, sizes 1 to 5, ate fast food, did nothing, could barely walk across the college without dying they were in such bad shape. They also went drinking every weekend and ate out all the time yet were still small. These girls, half my size...yet I struggle, can not lose no matter how little I eat or how much I exercise. Then these girls look at me and say I need to lose some weight...give me a break. How about you run ten laps around the building and see if you have enough breath left to tell me that. I move on now, fighting back the low self esteem and hopefully it will not show through again...

Poinsoned by our own food...

They've done it...

It's happened...food that is it's own pesticide. They have successfully engineered corn to murder it's pests. One of this plants main predators is the corn worm, it is a small worm that eats various parts of the plant and lays eggs to multiply and take over crops. A company has genetically modified corn to poison these worms as soon as they take a bite.

Personally, this is terrifying news. For one, what does this do to humans? Have they tested the end product in detail. Second...what will they come up with next? No wonder today's people are plagued with disease, and today's youth has almost no chance of growing up healthy. Our food is causing illness, death and severely crippling the environment, yet we continue...take more antibiotics, find more names for our ailments and complain about pollution and global warming. There is a reason why Germany and New Zealand will not allow any GMO (Genetically Modified Organisms) into their country...we should pay attention.The next thing is the patents being put on seeds. How can you patent/copyright something that is made by nature. Humans can changed it, but they are creating restrictions to use something that you can find anywhere. Some insanely large corporation is creating seeds that do not grow unless planted a certain way with a certain fertilizer or chemical. Then they are putting a patent on all other types of the seed so that any farmer has to purchase the seeds ONLY from this company in order for their crops to grow...legally. THIS IS INSANE! How dare we give control over our food supply to some business schmuck! You might as well just poison everyone and have one company selling the antidote.


This provides me with one more reason to support organic farming and products. Save the earth, our rivers and most important, ourselves and our children. The government should increase it's spending into organic farming, making the process strict across the board so that no company can come in and leach off the consumers without provide what is promised. This may be able to save us from their other stupid decision to allow these large corporations to take over our food. Maybe not in my life time...but soon, we will all be in very big trouble. If I ever have children I will be teaching them the importance of eating healthy food and choosing the best products. They will know how to grow potatoes and raspberries, compost and to provide for themselves. How to crush wheat to make bread and making and canning tomato sauce! I wonder if there was a worldwide emergency, how many people would be able to fend for themselves. Or how many have relied on companies to feed them, cook for them and baby them...to death.

It's like sending a prissy dog that has been primped it's whole life...to live with the wolves. The end story will not be pretty and only those that have kept their instinct and general fend-for-yourself attitude will survive. I heard the other day...from someone that certain religions require you to keep a certain amount of flour on hand for emergencies. Our current young adult generation actually asked..."what do we do with this flour?" The ancestors were disgusted and shocked. Now, part of growing up is a "bread making party" to teach the younger generations how to make bread and other foods from scratch in case of a catastrophe. Is this sick to anyone else? That these generations have become so accustomed to fast, instant and pre-prepared foods that they do not even know how to cook for themselves? This will cause their own children to be worse! I pity the world...

There is life out there...

Interesting...that in all this vastness of cyber information...someone finds my little blog and provides wonderful insight on a topic. So there is life out there, others that reach out and touch. Thank you to the anonymous poster...

In this world of coldness, when you find a friendly face...or in my world of the internet voice, I just want to grab on and hold on tight. This cyberspace is a wonderful way to meet people and get to know someone before you begin to judge. Then again...I always like the curiosity of what the face is behind a sexy voice...but sometimes think it is better left unknown. My mind wanders enough and day dreams haunt me...

Movie Review

I really enjoy watching movies, so every now and then I will post about the most recent movie I watched.

Running Scared

I watched this morning over the weekend and was extremely surprised. Even though it is extremely violent and full of fowl language, the movie was well done. The filming and editing was amazing and the overall look of the movie was quite unique. The story was interesting, with twists. I'm still not sure about the ending, I'm happy about the way it ended but there were still some questions in my head when it was all over.

This is a movie I recommend, if you like the shoot-em up types of movies.