Chocolatey Goodness

Incredible chocolate, with a jolt! Like eating smooth, wonderful dark chocolate with finely ground espresso mixed in. Perfect.

Snaps

Snapchat cartoons make me laugh, especially when they actually really do look like you and your friend...we also sit in cups of tea on a regular basis!

Selfies...

Fall

Love fall, cool weather, warm food...awesome coats!

Nothing...

When you have nothing for yourself, how can you possibly give to someone else?

Gaming

Had some time to game this week so of course I ended up in TF2. Sometimes I like my limited game time as when I finally do play there is always something new. On this day, my favorite new sight is the box. Love it.

Projects

Found this poor guy on the floor in a storage room. Sad slow death that results in such beauty, couldn't let it go to waste. Bought a shadow frame and got him mounted. 

Cheating...

When your very stressful clean eating day ends with an ice cream sandwich...

Contagious!

Fidget

Nothing extraordinary

Woops...

Sweating

Mixed martial arts time! Love my workouts...

You are having a stroke...

Tunes

Western, steampunk, violin...sold!

Games

I miss gaming!

The push didn't quite make it though.

Splat!

Love the rounds that just work out right...

Ummm...you dropped something.

Foods

Busy evening of baking a ton of treats and cooking for others. I guess when I have to cook things I don't like...mushrooms...everything is still OK because I have a Deadpool apron! Food was still awesome, once I picked out the mushrooms.

Song Bird

Loving my new Songbird hoodie! Need to get a picture of the back.

Feed the birds...

When you find dried worms and cannot resist buying them for the bird feeder. Curious if my backyard feather friends will like them!

Mmmmmm...

My kind of waffle. Reminiscing on yesterday's stress induced breakfast choice. Brie, bacon and basil on a very yummy yeast waffle.

Business time!

When you mean business...and Snapchat thinks you mean so much business that the Starbucks lady is in business time mode too!

Old girl...

Oh Duff you old girl...worried about this one. 

Comfort Food

What are the foods that give you the most comfort? Mine are strange. I LOVE grilled cheese and a special treat of adding maple brown beans and some cottage cheese. So good, warm, sweet and salty, good for the soul. Needed some comfort food last night. 

What is yours?

Fate

Some days are more difficult than others...some days remind me of how unhappy I am, completely stuck in this guilt, regret, defeated. Such is life...some days songs give me goosebumps. Other days, they bring sorrow.

So goes a day lost in my memories
It’s only fate some things are meant to be
Somethings are meant to be
Who needs to know
Looking for reasons when life casts a stone
Leaving me screaming inside

So much for love
Lost you in over again
Covered in blood
You had the sense to stay calm and contained
There's no sense in crying my blues for my brain
Leaving me standing outside

Show me a sign
Something that’s shining
Like the tears in your eyes
You can surprise me
Because I want to be
The one the one you return to
You just believe you’re not alone in the world

It’s only fate
It’s everything you bargained for

WTF Steam...

Steam made a suggestion to me...Dream Daddy?

Really, wtf is that. "A Dad Dating Simulator" Wow, really? No thanks...a million time no thanks. Who thought this was a good idea for a game?!

Chilling

Chilling and needing some gaming time. 

It has happened...

I was called a cougar...some 21 year old kid called me a cougar! Then again, he used it in the wrong context. I always felt that a "cougar" is an older attractive woman who goes after younger guys. Not the case at all...nonetheless, I feel old.

Flowers

I always thought flowers as gifts was a waste of money. I'd bring them home, they'd sit on my table, my cats would chew on them and puke up leaves on my bed, the flowers would wild and drop petals all over and then they would die. That being said, I an entirely fascinated with Orchids.

When a peer at work was moving to a new opportunity, she brought me an Orchid as a good bye and thank you. The flowers were beautiful and they bloomed for a long time. When the flowers died my office mate was going to chuck the plant. I saved it, it was still alive! I did some research to see if it would grow new buds and got some tips on caring for the plant. I cut the floral stems leaving the leaves. It has been growing for a few years now and I am forever hopeful new flowers will arrive.

I had another peer move onto exciting new things, she showed up this week with an orchid! I will continue hoping my first one blooms again while enjoying these new flowers. So gorgeous. 

Treats

Long day of work, then an evening of fund-raising baking. When you end up with a baker's dozen, it means I get a treat! Can't feed people cookies I don't know are good...right? Just had to warm it up and add a little ice cream. Mmmmmm...

Compliments

I had some guy on social media message me with a compliment. He saw my profile picture in a group we shared and let me know how attractive he thought I was. Of course my defence and lack of self worth kicked in and I denied his compliments. He mistook my low self esteem as meanness/cockiness and coined me a bitch. "A guy can't compliment a girl nowadays? Sorry!" Then proceeded to shift and became very rude.

I guess I'm a bitch and because your compliment didn't make my day and I didn't fall at your feet, I deserve insults instead. Awesome...moving on.

Ink

I may or may not have some new ink!

Day 1

Started my 30 days of no eating out and making better choices. Currently reminiscing about my late night poutine last week...not easy to stay on track.

Remember...

Ask her about her day, tell her about your day. 

Bring up random stuff, see how the conversation goes.

Talk about hobbies, things you are looking forward to, motivations.

Chit chat, share about life, interest, complain, rage, laugh.

Extrinsic motivation begins!

Halloween approaches, an excuse to wear one of my costumes! Also an excuse to add a piece to one of my costumes and better it. Ordered a new dress for my steampunk fairy and excited to have this costume completed. Now just to find a place to wear it out! An extrinsic motivator to stay on track and tone up! Here we go.

Beetlejuice!