Thursday, November 28, 2013

Very cool

These are awesome.

Oh good lord...

So the other day I posted chocolate peanut butter cups to make. Well I made them...I'm not a sweets person at all but oh man, theese are good.

I changed the recipe though.

In a pot I melted the following on low heat:
- 1 cup organic dark chocolate domes (I laughed when I saw them called domes on the package)
- 1/4 cup organic crunchy peanut butter
- 1/4 cup organic coconut oil

While melting (and stirring often) I chopped up 1/2 cup raw almonds. Once melted I turned off the heat and dumped in 1 cup shredded unsweetened coconut and the chopped almonds. Stirred this up and spooned into a mini muffin tin. I put plastic wrap on it first for easy removal. I then popped them in the freezer.

Seriously amazing. I had to hold with a cloth as they just melt. 225 calories each I must fight the temptation to have more!

The best...

Best disinfectant wipe package ever!


A girl I went to high school with posted pictures of her engagement. She's a beautiful girl I will say, always has been. Her husband is some older man who owns a bunch of night clubs. They have a child together and when i saw her at the high school reunion it was clear that she is not the primary caregiver to her child or home. I also know she us unemployed.

So her husband works a lot, they hire help with the child leaving her to just work at maintaining her beauty. The funny thing is all I could think was, "Yep, that's her life." It was like I've always expected that's how she'd end up, that there was no other course of life for her then to marry a sugar daddy and land the role of standing around being beautiful. Would drive me insane, I'll be the cougar with the young good looking man hanging on my arm thanks!

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

To try

Chocolate Coconut Peanut Butter Cups **All-Natural, Gluten Free, Dairy Free** 

- 1 cup dark chocolate chips 1/4 all natural buttery spread (Earth Balance)
- 1/4 cup all natural peanut butter 
- 1 cup all natural shredded coconut (no sugar added) 
- 1 cup raw almonds 

In a pan, add the chocolate chips, buttery spread, and peanut butter. Heat and stir until the mixture is smooth and well blended. Turn off the heat. Add the coconut and almonds and mix well. Spoon into paper lined muffin tins. Fill each tin about 2/3 full. Place in the freezer and chill until firm (about 30 minutes). Remove from the freezer. Put extra Chocolate Cups in a freezer bag and store in the freezer for future desserts. Remove from the freezer and allow to soften a little before eating.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013


Getting used to this. First selfie on the Galaxy...with a much needed beer after today!

Monday, November 25, 2013

Want so bad!

I saw someone this weekend wearing the black version of this and fell in love! I had no idea they were this expensive but man...I want this so badly.

Sunday, November 24, 2013


Trying to get some costume ideas for my next Comicon/Expo. Any ideas?

While wondering around the interwebs for ideas I found these 2 amazing ones!


I love her dreads!


Just made my own coconut milk from organic unsweetened dried coconut. Booya!

Saturday, November 23, 2013


My expo purchase!

My CAH picks of the night!

This one the white cards should be switched. 

This time

This time I was a make-up demo model for my artist. She made latex moulds to cover my eyebrows (that was fun pulling off) and changed my lips. I then walked around a comicon type expo for 2 hours in costume. Man my feet hurt! Was great. I loved seeing the generation gap between the people who knew who I was and the people who didn't!

I was actually asked several times to have my picture taken or have someone get their picture with me which was surprising. There was only one though that I was super thrilled to have mine taken with! The guy was laughing because I was so excited. His body art was so well done, just the whole thing. Good times...

Selfies are difficult to take, especially with the crappy camera on my ipad. I just wanted to keep taking pictures after spending so much time getting the make-up done! I think I'm done for a while now...

Once again

Was a model for a make-up demo at an entertainment expo. For the 3rd time in a month I was yet again Jessica Rabbit!

Ya there is!

Friday, November 22, 2013


Oh Betty...

You make me feel better about most days when I'm lucky to get 7 and most times 6 hours of sleep. The universe telling me I don't need more...right? RIGHT?!

Thursday, November 21, 2013



This week I will say I'm lucky to have the people around me that I do!

...oh Bear

Tuesday, November 19, 2013


I cannot take it anymore...Diclofenac you better help me while I continue to try and figure out the reason for all this pain. First night I actually had trouble walking to get to bed. This is not cool!


Recreating childhood photos

Special day...

Skinny jeans and knee high boots, 2 things I never thought I'd ever own let alone wear in public.

Monday, November 18, 2013


Paleo bedtime snack, half an avocado, a banana, coconut milk and some coconut sugar. Sooooo good. Now to try it with coco at some point.


This made me laugh, even read it in his voice in my head...


Meat sauce from spaghetti on spaghetti squash instead of pasta. Was pretty good...

I cheated

Breakfast sand which on a jalapeƱo biscuit. As good as it was so wasn't worth it! I'm moving forward...

Music is back...

Music was always a huge part of my life. Played the violin and piano for the majority of my life. I would go to concerts, have music playing every day, even followed 2 musical groups to cities up to 4 hours away. It makes me cry, makes me smile, gives me goose bumps...for some reason I lost it and haven't had music as a major part in my life for so long. Was reminded this weekend how powerful music can be, the words, the mood. It is helping me cope again. Some songs just hit so perfect to the situation. I've used Grooveshark to share my tunes however I just got Rdio going and am sharing 2 playlists at this time. If you have any suggestions of music I would like please share! You can listen to samples through the widget or if you register for Rdio for free you can listen to the whole playlist.

Enjoy! Or don' music taste isn't for all.

Sunday, November 17, 2013



Pretty Awesome

For some odd reason this is pretty awesome...


Why does this song give me goosebumps? Especially seeing the video for the first time, the emotion in his voice is one thing, but seeing it in his face is another...

Thinking of a few while listening to this...


I've been waiting for months, waiting for years, waiting for you to change.
Aw, but there ain't much that's dumber, there ain't much that's dumber
than pinning your hopes on a change in another.
And I, yeah I still need you, but what good's that gonna do?
Needing is one thing, and getting gettings another.

So I been sitting around, wasting my time,
wondering what you been doing.
Aw, and it ain't real forgiving, it ain't real forgiving
sitting here picturing someone else living.
And I, yeah I still need you, but what good's that gonna do?
Needing is one thing, and getting gettings another.

I've been hoping for months, hoping for years, hoping I might forget.
Aw, but it don't get much dumber, it don't get much dumber
than trying to forget a girl when you love her.
And I, yeah I still need you, but what good's that gonna do?
Needing is one thing, and getting gettings another.

When? When? Why not now? Why not me? Why not me?


I'm tired of no music while I cook and clean. As Christmas baking is fast approaching I need tunes to start my experimenting for gifts (like beer candied bacon). As I keep putting off buying speakers I cleaned the kitchen and put up the old stereo. Overkill much? Sure sounds amazing compared to iPad speakers!

The things you find

In a decluttering mood. Hanging on to too much...

The things I find that I forgot I had!

Saturday, November 16, 2013




Been too long since I've purged and cleaned my desk! So much nicer!



I wish I could say exactly what is on my mind and have it come out making the same sense that it does in my head. Instead I say things, then am left wondering how these same thoughts look in the other persons mind and what was lost in translation from my thoughts, to my mouth, out into the open, to their ear and into their thoughts. Today I have those moments of thought where I wish I hadn't said so much yet I wish I'd said more. Regret and wonder...

Friday, November 15, 2013

Trying a new wine


Was told this is the latest Viral video. You know that part in the movie Shrek when Shrek and Donkey watch the little dancing dolls when they get to the castle and Shrek has this complete WTF look on his face after? Ya well that's how I felt after watching this...


Went for a trim today. I tend to not like getting my hair done, I'm the shower and go type of person and my styling ends with blow drying my bangs. The reason I am not a fan of hairdressers is they are always wanting to play with my straight hair. It's like my bone straight hair is a challenge to them and they are always curling it! Today I went for a trim, just a trim, half an inch off the bottom as I'm trying to grow it out, and I walk out like this...

Good news is the trim ended up taking an hour so I don't have to go back to work between my cut and another appointment I have this morning. Time to exercise and maybe read or bake cookies!

Feels good

This morning I woke up late, grabbed a pair of pants out of my drawer, got dressed and ran out. Into the work day I realized I grabbed a pair I had last worn in July or August and realized they are way too big! I felt like a Jenny Craig person all day pulling up my pants that keep falling down and swimming in them. Motivation FTW!

Doesn't look like me but that is then sitting low and me not pulling at al to get excess. Note to self, pack up that size!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013


My 12 hour work day is done. Jillian I've had a long day...please be nice...


Bought my first pair of skinny jeans and boots. Well first off I was not expecting the jeans to even fit! Don't think I've ever fit into that size so I was amazed. These are the thoughts that traveled through my brain as I pulled on these jeans:

1. Why the fuck can I not even get these jeans over my heal, this is like pulling on a latex gimp costume for crying out loud!

2. Oh great now I have to shimmy them up my leg like pantyhose.

3. Oh sure the legs I have to work at and then they just go the rest of the way easy when I'm just about to give up...and I can do them up!

4. Why the he'll do women wear these things!? That was way too much work to get dressed.

5. Now how the hell do I get them off.

Then I proceeded to put the boots on and bravely approached the mirror. Ok...I think I get it. They looked pretty good. They reminded me of stories an old college instructor used to tell of wearing jeans in the 70s so tight she had to lay on the bed and pull the zipper up with a plyers. At least now we have spandex blended in to make them more comfortable. Not sure I'm ready to hang up my Keens and bootlegs I keep them or pay to ship them back for return. There are times I wished I enjoyed shopping and would go to the store instead of stubbornly buying online when I need something new...